Things I’ve written, being the Crazy Cat Lady & an update on my zoo.

I’m over at the Hooray Collective today as well. Here’s a snippet:

I couldn’t breath when I met you. I took a look at you and lost all sense of reason because you were just too much. You were tall and perfect and professional and an adult, which I, at 21, wasn’t. There was something about the way you held yourself, the way you carried yourself that I found irresistible and any control I had over myself was lost then, to you.

I’ve said sometimes that I’ve loved you from that minute, but that’s probably not true. I was too overwhelmed by all that you were to categorize it as anything other than SO MUCH, because that’s what you were and that’s what you have been to me. So much.

You looked at me then, that day we met, and I thought I was melting. I remember being so flushed at the sight of you that I thought for sure I was glowing. I felt insignificant next to you. Feral. You were this polished thing and I was this mess of a girl, raised by wolves.

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Recently, the last time temperatures plummeted into the single digits, I put a dog bed on the front porch, for the wild cats, and, as I looked at the bed on the porch, nestled behind one of my red Adirondack chairs, it occurred to me that with that simple little act I had taken yet another step toward embracing my role as the Neighborhood Crazy Cat Lady.

I didn’t really mind, because if it meant the wild cats had a cozy place to curl up, then it was all okay to me. I wasn’t sure the kitties would use it. It smells like dog and house and not-wild cats, but then, after the first terrible cold snap had passed, I came home to find Daddy Cat snuggled up in the cat bed and I might have done a little fist pump right there on the front lawn because he looked so happy, and so cozy and so I’m calling it a CRAZY CAT LADY WIN, haters be damned.

As for the indoor creatures, they’re all crazy.

photo 1That white dog, Sadie, lost her damn mind when the snow came. She was so pleased and darted out of the house to run circles around the yard, kicking up snow as she went. And then there’s her sock obsession. She just can’t quit socks and it doesn’t matter where I put the socks after taking them from my feet, she will find them and she will bring them downstairs to snuggle with on the couch and she will sometimes leave them on my pillow and sometimes I come home from work and find a single, lonely sock in each room of the house.

They’re basically her babies, those socks, and she’s very, very protective of them, often growling at the cats when they can to close to her sock pile and occasionally liberating them from the insides of my running shoes.

photo 3And then there’s Luke, who is most definitely the most kind creature living in this house. He’s a proper gentleman, although there has been a noted uptick in his anxiety whining. Sometimes he just stands in the middle of a room and cries, for no apparent reason. He has a lot of feelings, I think.

He also has this incredible ability to pick up a whole mess of leaves and yard debris and carry it into the house on his back. There’s something about his fur that just traps the leaves so perfectly that sometimes he comes in with leaves all over his back, looking like he was just practicing his camouflage techniques.

photo 4Bitty is crazy. Out of everyone, she’s the meanest and the softest and the silliest. She’s great at snuggling, and at biting the edges of boxes and at spying on me from various locations. In the morning she races me and the dogs to the back door and then has to be held, just for a minute. She meows and chirps along the way and it is so, so sweet.

But, she’s very sassy, that orange cat, and is still waging a full on war against the wild cats. When she’s really pissed, she’ll bite the trim around the windows by the front door and I noticed the other day that she’s totally bit off the paint in a few spots and a bit of the wood as well. It is not cute.

photo 2Beanie is probably the strangest animal that lives in the house. He’s the best climber, for sure, and whenever there are scary things in the house, like dogs he doesn’t know, he climbs from the kitchen counter, to the top of the fridge, to the top of the cabinets and hangs out up there, chirping a little bit. It is vaguely unsettling to walk into a dark kitchen, flip on the light and find a wide eyed mess of black looming from above me.

He also believes very strongly that an empty food bowl means his death is imminent. I don’t ever even check the cat food bowl anymore because I know, the moment the last bit of kibble is come, Beanie will appear, fear in his eyes, bopping his head at me like a pigeon and frantically racing up the stairs to see if food has appeared yet.

And me?

I’m ok. Sometimes I have solo dance parties in my dining room while cleaning the house on Sundays and sometimes I go for a long run and feel like I never, ever want to stop. Sometimes I don’t want to get out of bed and it’s a fight to push myself forward. Sometimes my heart hurts so bad I wish I could cut it out and go on without it. But mostly I’m ok. Just ok.

 


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15 thoughts on “Things I’ve written, being the Crazy Cat Lady & an update on my zoo.


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    Oh, honey, I’m so sorry. Big hugs.


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    I read your other post and it was beautiful. You are such a strong and brave woman. I admire the crap out of you. Stay strong <3


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    Luke looks so much like one of my family pets. What a sweet face. Love it. Off to read your other post. xo


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    Aaannnd I just read your other post. Here for you if/when you need a trip somewhere, nachos, beer, dog cuddles, runs, whatever I can do from afar. You’re a beautiful, strong and amazing woman. Hugs and nothing but love for you.


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    oh man. i clicked over to your other piece and i have tears afterward. it always seems so lame to say it for something so raw, but your writing is outstanding here. i’m so, so sorry you’re going through this, and i am sending warm thoughts your way. <3


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    Whitney

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    Your letter was beautiful, and touching. I teared up reading it. You are strong, and beautiful, and intelligent, and worthy of so many good things. I’m thinking of you, and wishing you more dance parties and less pain.

    xx


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    nic

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    All I can say is that I love you. Love, love, love you. And, I’m proud of you. xoxo


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    I can’t even find the right words. None of them are good enough. I’m so sorry, Terra. Life is a bunch of bullshit sometimes. I wish there was something I could do.

    I miss you and all your critters – even Bitty, even though she hates me. I miss Sadie’s butt dance and Luke’s gentle love and Mr. Bean’s flirtations. I’m so happy you have them to give you comfort and love.

    Never forget that I’m here for you. XO


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    SaraAnn

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    Not much anyone can say. But if you need a laugh or a hug, I got you. Thinking about you and sending lots of love your way.


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    Margaret

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    hurting with you


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    Sending multiple 8-second hugs, good vibes and peace your way, lady. You’ll get through this.


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    Life is real fucked up sometimes but I’m glad you have your animals to distract you from it all. Wish I could come tackle hug you and then feed you IPAs and mac & cheese and have the best Snow White sleepover ever. It will have to wait a few months, but it WILL happen. Love & miss you so much!

    PS: Pretty sure ginger cats are genetically predetermined for insanity. Haven’t met a sane one yet.


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    one. i love your little menagerie. it’s amazing and adorable.
    two. i love you and all your awesomeness.
    three. i’m sorry you are going through this and just, you’re a gem. don’t ever forget it.


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    “He also believes very strongly that an empty food bowl means his death is imminent.” Literally LOL’d when I read that.

    Oh, Terra. If there is anyone in the world who does not deserve this, it’s you. Run your heart out and love on your critters and don’t forget, music can soothe your soul. Know that I will be thinking of you every day. My heart hurts for you. Always, always here if you need an ear – you helped me more than you’ll ever know and I’d be glad to repay the favor. Much, much love to you. xo


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    Oh, Terra. Sending love & eight-second hugs & fluffy animal cuddles whatever else will make you feel even the slightest bit better right now.


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