I keep coming back here and trying to write something that is not all GAH! SCHOOL!! WORK!! AIDNNIOGHIOSHAIOF!!! KITTY!! but really, each time I plop my ass in front an empty page, all I can think about is all the other shit I should be doing. And about how I have totally and completely lost the ability to just do ONE THING. It’s like my mind cannot handle the focus that comes from doing one thing at a time and I constantly need to flip between thing one and thing two and thing three and thing eleventyseven in order to feel useful, but really I don’t end up getting shit accomplished because I lack FOCUS.
So yeah. There’s that.
And it’s not even that I’m stressed, really. I can handle it. I know I can. Last week I wrote three different papers for school, worked a full week, and took care of an itty bitty kitty. I’ve got this, yo. Really. I do. It’s just that once I get to the bottom of this week’s list of stuff to get done, another week starts and there’s a whole other list of papers and work commitments and just STUFF that needs to get done and, given the way April has been going, it’s all just started to feel never ending.
So then today I was all like, I need a trip to plan! And yes, Vegas and #BiSC is right around the corner but that shit is planned and yes, I’m probably going on a road trip adventure this summer but planning that won’t involve airfare and will be a pretty low-key endeavor and right now all I want to do is plan a GREAT ESCAPE to someplace far away with sun, or exotic sights and people who speak a language I can’t understand and food that makes me drool just thinking about it.
So there’s that too.
Basically what I’m saying is that I need a way to BALANCE my life and a way to FOCUS on one thing at one time. I’m not sure when it got so bad, when it got to the point where I’ve got two papers, video editing software, a power point presentation and 13 Firefox tabs open, but here I am. Busy. Bombarding myself with way too much all at once to the point that I can’t focus in on one single thing. It’s all fucking forest and I can’t make out a single tree in this mess.
How do you focus and bring balance into your life? What’s worked for you, and, maybe more importantly, what hasn’t worked for you?